Dust and Feather
Hills Sills Fills Bills Mills Wills Quills….
Part of me — misses when I was new here, and all I wanted was a Lit Pit. But it doesn’t matter. Stuff I get into. Dust and feather.
Poetry is akin to sculpture.
Building into method that is not starved for incidence, to help in calculations??? Yes, actually. Emily talks about it in her letters…
Poetry doesn’t have to think in sentences. And can flip into using switches in grammar, up to a point and still work. Especially through word order.
Novel: Chandler reading about how he did sentences. Over and over each on a separate sheet and not stopping till had what he wanted. Snuff.
Meanwhile politics is screaming everywhere. Seems to have to, like there is something going on that must stand with Turkey, stand with the Baltics. Against the oligarchs and Trump etc.
My support is with keeping Canada free. America is less free right now than Canada. Borders are aggressive, bankruptcies are common for health care, and government is trying to dissolve its responsibility for us. The free man depends on nobody. We have a bargain with our government that they are trying to undo, thats what it feels like, in favor of autocracy.
Administration using DEI and Immigration in order to assert unchallengeable power, extra-legally using wartime laws. Judges condemned for protecting rights, are being put under so much pressure. Makes us feel like fucking Hungary.
Of course the asshole Law Firm cares more about its survival than protecting its own RIGHTS? Why hire them?
Overnight they have turned into lobbyists instead.
TAXES, there is a discussion online thats happening over in congress to close Loop Holes for businesses, I dont know which ones.
Constituents are yelling Tax the Rich. And I dont care how much pundits put down these Town Halls as not Trump voters, I dont buy that hype, I think they are missing the point.
They are everywhere. And they are rural, small towns, suburban villages even, mostly white. And they weren’t there before. And their moment is freedom righteous.
Public Corporations since they are separate entities have to pay a fair share. Tariffs only add to the price. Taxes on Dividends and Buybacks would not. Taxes on profits means that the more they make the more the pay. Tariffs means the more they buy, the more they pay, thats different.
Could Bernie get through a wealth tax? Could he increase social security up to 1 million. Trump wont win again if he doesn’t pay attention to it, is what it feels like out there.
The border thing feels awfully like a regurgitation of last time. And, these are not careful men! they dont care who they hurt.
There’s an online cadre of people who willingly support Trump’s most cruel regurgitations, thanking him. Their anger remains focused on immigrants and they are religiously righteous about it for sure.
Turkey, OMG.
Jailing adversaries is historical in Turkey.
Turkey has a new martyr. Thats a big deal in Islam. Perhaps built into system even.
That they took away his college degree so he cant run, SPEAKS VOLUMES. It is POLITICAL. By taking away that degree, they are ADMITTING IT.
What he would do in power, who knows. He is supposedly more secular.
Just as once we were seemingly more secular… And are now less free? Yeah, Trump is doing everything he can to take control of Universities, Lawyers, Judges, Borders, annulling allies, dissecting government from its people, and then setting up prayer time in the white house\, like its authoritarianism is itself a redemption from god.
Distance and Focus
Novel seems to be turning into that novel thing, using distant acquaintances who I know hibernate help me fixate on the folly fully Molly —
On finding what’s inside of the fiction -
My writer thinks lowly of me. Somehow dont match up. I dont live up to my work? No.
Needless to be ashamed of writing fiction? just because others dont. Is it less than fiction?
No it’s not. Language itself is embedded in fictions and meta that enlivens The CAG ODDEU. Slowing down on reading White Goddess — for Yeats?
Amazes me how early in poetics, we began to express bravery and sorrow in strains of beauty, monstrosities, and madness.
And how, without it in my life, I was lost…
Where allow fiction to live is the beginning of everything… Fiction is also an abstraction? Yes and over-simplification — So there’s that.
Camus. I cant take back what I have read.
Dust and Feather. GET BACK TO WORK.
Work on A Poem
I should work on a poem…
My site has continued to get more hits according to one of my Stats. Something continues to cycle through with my numbers going up and down. Tho I havent been able to match the new traffic to any one crawler. Mostly it seems off of google stuff. Interesting.
Poems are wrenching.
Where I found sword and wrench. But others have found sweetness in my work. That girl thing, writer calls her La Fleure, stridently.
Without shame? no actually is a part of what shame becomes… Leibniz.
Slave to Words
Do you have slaves? Dyna told me that I had intrinsically fallen into concepts of slavery from the holy cow ? Ridiculed abit.
Is Dyna a fiction. Extensions therefrom are part of my understanding of its fiction…
Mostly the poetry battles with Love Death Animality Religious contortions Brutal lusts Terror condemnation to Time exchanging Power and Poison, crying for Mercy, anointing Scabs while sunbathing, Hells brutal spells -
Novel is quizzical, poetry is death fat.
Are there any slaves in your “possession” —
I have had religious slaves since television? Or before ?
I think before.
They exist through power structures, that inhabit the religious and were part of earliest schematics in dreams, wrath and bide of poor baby nooky, included power relationships. Which accessed things felt, innocence powerlessness toys and terror. Its existence in me wildly rigged.
What dig I know.
Go be free —
Folding into the fiction for language that abides there and I know it, it’s like going back to get the upheavals of language growing into magic, tragic and mold, tree lines and trunk.
There is a painting elephant somewhere in my quantum.
Elephant at Work
I am drawing again. Outside of classroom. To bring my pencil back up. Can’t get fashion out of drawing faces, or sculpture out of drawing body.
But I can sculpt as I draw, fairly closely, then do a few faces the same way —
Then go in for a prize. Which finds lines. It’s like I have to build back up to attaching head to body.
Drawing faces, delicate business…. And I like to find gestures while drawing, with gestures you have to let go of the resources to engage with nuance, a lot of give and take goes on.
Do I use resources. OMG I live in a time that is resource HEAVEN.
This particular time in history we have access to “infinite” variety dating back to our earliest elephant selves.
The Battle of the Trees: Prehistory and the I am/Have been... poems
Prehistory and THE I AM/HAVE BEEN POEMS.
