Spelunking. Breathing Hole. Acquiring meta… Shots in Arm? yes. think of junk as shots too… in arm. liquid. Its good that its quiet.
I hang here but the levels of acquisition and openess to its creativity and contamination, are at a different level and slope. That challenge became secondary to Shaharizod. Even tho it never looses “faith” in resurrecting… It never stops using/amusing that strange conviction of mercy, and oddly, thinks of it, as being a stray. But the stray thing, comes out of its coeval existence/nonexistence side. Its doubling into the vanishing, yes……v.
Its being considered as per service to the sector — that I am baa baa bad sheep, whereas I understand it as a mystery… and that the words themselves have survived the assassins.
Not everyone finds cause for those types of attenuations. And are not looking for their relief or release — from neighborhood of sacrificial stamina execution and beauty.
As a wee one I had boxes of hansel and gretl that ran into, in Pynchons GR. I call the Boxy twins.
Not everyone falls into a Medieval sacrificial mouth open to god and death painting, as way of clinging to beauty (in death)….
Do I see any of the sacrificial thingy in Grk Rom myth, well - yes it is used for beauty, but there is no jesus motif, in that same sense of passion — well, you got hercules, and I am no expert on GRK or Roman Myth. I have just read a couple of books. There’s loss and sorrow, but that sacrificial ecstasy thing that comes out of saintlihoodness… that Bataille gets in on. No I dont think so.
Nor did I find it in Native stories, where humor is different and attentiveness, focus, focus on the immediate.
I had to relearn attentiveness to the immediate, after The Sinking of the Bis Mark.
How about hindu wrt sacrificial elevations. yes. chinese buddhist. oh yes, japanese yes,,, appears to me there are some senses of it, for sure.
Common Time Cut Time. I can sort of do this now. And think it through sentence by sentence.
Thursday Fright Night. Jug of neg shakes one loose on the immediacy…
Time elementals visiting as “spooks” - ghostling host sept tea seemia, and battle over sweet nothings…
Sweetness also lies in contempt. Work that into novel, the gentleness is in the novel? yes. Switches are color wheel now once I grabbed on to them and didnt let go. A view towards gentleness is enforced through combination of switches.
Taught me to think mechanically along with what I was reading. What one hates is the breach after reach its a necessity? oh blind necessity -
Hub noxious. Stop. I love combining syllables to make new meanings out of phrasings…
Use rhymers too to help me resolve the head its.
I am not a stager. I dont do plays, I dont dream of doing staged things. I dont dismiss that either. It harbors here too — but in a different way somehow.
That doubleness right there. how many NTs? four counting 1 not.
I count contractions like knots of notes. Well. Yeah as I can feel its tensions like V for vibration on stringness… But havent a note anywhere. Dont do music at all. Dont even listen cant it wrecks me. Except when I am teaching… I turn on music teaching. I do background music to drown out any background noise.
Dun its the only way. In. To the lot airy. Love comes from true exchange. But it exists outside of it too. In other ways….if you can find it.
Spelunking
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