Pulled out of politics for a bit. Calm down. I hate when that happens. Party rules. I defended Platner. I thought he did a good job. But then the girls came out. All his exes after him.
One was real. One was political. Then another one who knows. Soon after won primary and he got over 70 percent in the primary. And the turnout was great. So fuck us.
I dont like it. And now republicans are spreading all this horror about him. The new stuff coming out of maga. Is as bad as the Democratic doyen. Built on it. The horror descending from the republicans — was first established to kill him off by the democrats.
And it gets to point dont know what to believe. So I quit the democratic party and now call myself a Bernie independent.
First I was upset and attacked. Then the morals against rape brigade went nuts on me too, and I am trying to figure it out. And do and dont see what they see. I like his being a grunt marine rather than a pilot or computer screen.
I began to wonder about it after hearing language on reddit. As the language is racist and sexist its every ist. They are the istiest. Which is how they talk. And I never saw that in action before. They call each other by their racist names still just like in army movies . Saw it there in action.
I didnt study it. Read fast and left.
Also did not want it to be true.
I’d still vote for him over her. And I am not getting involved with finding his mealy mouthed replacement. Republicans are going after whoever that might be now too with usual trumpian lies. Exactly as he has been using against everybody. Mortgage fraud. And he was a logger.
FUCK THEM.
Republicans have mucho buckos and they are just as ruthless as those in democratic party were, to kill Platner off. In that regard I see no difference between them.
I dont live in Maine.
Prying after Poetry
Writing. Poems are being worked over again, pried open, off line. It makes a difference now if I am sending out. I have started to send out poems pretty consistently now.
Do I write the same poem over and over. Yes. Did Beckett. Yeah kind of. Not as bad as me…
I dont care. I am as small as they come, coiled in on itself. Clarice intrudes on narrators of her books all the time. Its part of the discussion for her of what she does.
My poems engage with Anne Sexton too. And like Clarice as well, poetic burns butter into the bitter as well the lift. Form is driven into it, like old sea tunes. I cant get rid of it. Maybe I dont have to huh.
The narrative is and is not different. The beginning of the novella is very simple. Language is contained by it. I have found the tenor I want. But its actually two. One plots. The other is poetic and fugues. Maybe there is also a third. That is explanatory and has a touch of dryness to it.
Picks up on Clarice thing where uses romance as its entry and then changes in and out of doing something else. The fugues give way to logic in math and its usage or mechanics, as a part of metaphor hunting. Metaphysics was part of religion so brings forward in time that interplay.
Going back before SM but goes after building intimacy into the language, brings others in. Which is looked on as piratical. Some have tried to beat that out of me. Only dug it further in.
Poems are for me poetic strings that come down thru forever to me. Rhyme bears a relationship to that as a romance with its stubborn inescapable agenda. There’s a timelessness for me in that.
Verse structures go through a series of reconstructions that embody rhythm into the visual as a necessity.
French + Portugues
Reading Volume 2 Marcel’s memory tome, straight through in french now.
I have packets of french words, that I save. I do alphabetical cross contaminations of words in french in my head almost every night.
Obsessed much. YES.
I got a french portugues bilingual for Aqua Viva. My fave Lispector book. My translation work feels normy. I get the way Cioran sets things up , how he shoots his way into a sentence, using cluster phrases that introduce thoughts, the qui que se me soit quoi, he has simplified it for himself yes, but also uses colloquial phrasing — french will use five words, english 2, if that anymore.
Sometimes. Using rhyme as a vehicle I go after having no originality — none, I am fastened to the language (like marcel sort of) and it operates me. At times of course gets awful seeing what comes up.
But I want to see that too. There is a plug ugliness to the things I get into. That I want to find out more about.
Always there is what I call the god awfulness in it.
And even if I try to drive it out, it comes back in. Narrative I have so much more room to play but requires the same attention to every detail, its no less demanding and just as slow.
Poems as reduce to their strings, sometimes classic music in background fits right on it while working it which makes me smile.
I mock my own efforts, I know…
If it comes back in enough times, it stays in.
Its so good that I now have not three jobs just one. To write.